I cannot love God nor can I hate him, for he is like us without guilt. I can only hope to convince him of the error of his way, and failing that quest for his utter destruction
I think neither you nor christians really understand his way. I guess everyone can only possess personal god and not ultimate. And his way therefore is only seen through the angle of our subjectiveness. God's not Bible, nor science, it's much more complicated than that. If I could I would invent a new word for it. If I could I would understand him.