well i let my sister know of my plans to reenlist in army. she wanted to know why, my reasoning is i am not getting anywhere in my current job, being pushed to part-time for no reason of my own is pretty lame, and I don't have the desire to go look for other jobs...nobody likes hiring 23 year old guys and paying above $8 an hour with hours i like. i guess my job i'm getting tired of it. everybody says to me wow you're so smart, etc. and it's like yeah i am but look what i'm doing...I feel bad, as if i am actually supporting the al qaeda terrorists by not doing my part (aside from paying taxes to support the fight against those that wish to terrorize us) and serving my country. it's the feeling of an echoing guilt that i can't shake, it makes me think that I would find my place in the world if i was back in the army, and i end up hating everything and thinking i'm just wasting my time where i'm at, which in turn makes me angry...
Battle is a pure form of expression. It is heart and discipline, reduced to movement and motion. In battle, the words are swept away, giving way to actions-- mercy, sacrifice, anger, fear. These are pure moments of expression.