The waking up part was the worst part of BCT for me. Sometimes I would wake up w/o knowing it and be there at attention, one of the guys that was on fireguard would come in and tell me to go back to bed, and i'd be like 'huh?' it was weeeeird. dunno if i'll ever go back. i just dont know what i want to do with my life, i have no direction or goals.
Battle is a pure form of expression. It is heart and discipline, reduced to movement and motion. In battle, the words are swept away, giving way to actions-- mercy, sacrifice, anger, fear. These are pure moments of expression.