Roman Catholic, and a lot of the time it's hard as balls to believe. My advice, stay calm and carry on for the moment, in all circumstances keep up appearances, and look to the people you trust in real life rather than the internet for further advice on this matter.
Also, don't say that you want to find something you'd feel more comfortable to believe. Say that you want to find the truth of the universe.
"There is something going on in time and space, and beyond time and space, which, whether we like it or not, spells duty." -Winston Churchill
"For of all sad words of tongue or pen, The saddest are these: 'It might have been!'" -John Whittier
"Apathy is death." -Kreia