Ah, manual transmission a.k.a. stickshift.
Just keep with it. You'll be glad you did. It's one of those things which take time, practice and patience to get it right. Just the getting out and doing this will help you to refine it until you're a smooth driver.
You will notice clutches are all different and some are touchier than others.
Tip: Also getting revs higher before shifting (opposite of lugging which is from shifting as soon as possible)keeps the get-up-and-go longer for the vehicle when you are breaking a new one in.
I actually tried putting off getting a license as long as possible. Wound up with a hand-me-down car for my first one, though it was an auto and it was a dog as ever. My folks said "nope, you can't ride your bike through snow and we're not driving you everywhere", so I was almost 18 when I finally went to take my exam. I'd been called out to do driver training and studied the handbook and all but just didn't give a flip.
Eventually reality has a way of forcing our hands.