I'm finding my uncle role to be more fulfilling in the long run. At least I got that going for me. Besides not being able to find the right girl, I am experiencing some fun by myself...such as shooting, hunting, video games, netflix, school, working out, and getting back into bible studies which is actually starting to get fun and comfortable and there are some nice girls that go to it, not that they are interested in me, it could lead into something more i suppose.
Battle is a pure form of expression. It is heart and discipline, reduced to movement and motion. In battle, the words are swept away, giving way to actions-- mercy, sacrifice, anger, fear. These are pure moments of expression.